The Long Way...

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You ever take the long way somewhere simply because you ain't got nowhere to be?

Nobody's texting your phone. 

Nobody's asking you to hang out. 

Nobody's expecting you anytime soon.

So you take the long way.

Not because it's faster. 

Not because it's prettier. 

Just because it takes more time.

More time before you have to pull back into the driveway. 

More time before those four walls remind you that you're alone.

In a strange way, it feels like you're putting distance between yourself and the loneliness, even though you know it'll be waiting when you get back.

The older you get, the more you realize how quickly people's lives fill up.

Kids. Families. Careers. Other friends.

When you're single, you don't really want to do the "single people" stuff anymore because what you really want is someone to share your life with.

And your friends in relationships?

They're building lives of their own. As they should.

So you don't blame anybody.

You just... take the long way.

The long way to run errands.

The long way to grab something to eat.

The long way home.

Because when nobody's waiting for you, sometimes the road feels a little less lonely than the destination.

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